Malaise

malaise \muh-LAYZ; -LEZ\, noun:
1. A vague feeling of discomfort in the body, as at the onset of illness.
2. A general feeling of depression or unease.

One of the possible side effects of the flu shot I received today.  I think I’m possibly afflicted.

This job was like an unexpected house guest - not at all what you were planning on, but nevertheless carried its share of good moments.  But I’m done.  Fini.  Over it.  That flu shot I got today?  That was the highlight of my day, because it enabled me to do something other than STARE AT MY COMPUTER SCREEN attempting to play mind tricks on myself to inject some - ANY - amount of motivation.  I feel I’ve experienced and re-defined B-O-R-I-N-G to many new levels.  It boggles the mind what office workers did before the Internet to keep themselves sane - I’m guessing following that train of thought would lead us to the invention of the modern-day flask.

Whether flu shot or workplace induced, my “malaise” is lifted instantly when I think about yesterday’s time at the after school program, where 2.5 hours flew by like 5 minutes.  Every interaction, whether through play or homework or idle conversation, felt like an opportunity for learning, for understanding, and for caring.  All of it felt REAL to me.  Exhausting, yes, but REAL.

8 more weeks and counting.